365 days without being admitted in to the hospital.
I'm proud I've gone this far without.
dear j, im sorry you feel that way about me. im sorry i allowed my insecurities to destroy me, but all i want now is to forget about us. i want us to just be friends and i want to be there for you. i really do, and im here for you when its two-thirty in the morning and youre allowing the darkness to consume you. i will be here when all hope is lost and im the last person you want to think of because you dont want the hatred to consume you. i said i would always be here for you, and i will be. i want you to be happy with whomever makes you happy, whether it be her or anyone else. i dont care. i just want you to be happy and i want to be your friend. 
ive locked all my feelings in a box. no longer will they be allowed to d e s t r o y me Dear J im sorry i made our love impossible. you didnt deserve that. im sorry i didnt try hard enough to make things work out. but you will move on. i know that for certain. you soon will find a girl with brighter eyes and a more sincere smile. a girl that hasnt been hurt and has hope in love. a girl that will not be afraid to live her life with you. and once that happens i will be here. writing this letter. because you will move on sooner than i will. i promise you that. i will always love you. i will always be here if you need another talk. another hug. another kiss. another friend. i will forever hold you in my heart and keep you locked up like a bird in there. i just knew there came a time when i had to let it go. and right now im depending on that saying even more than ever. "if you love someone let them go, if they love you theyll come back to you" and my heart is racing but i know its for the best i will always love him just not enough and thats why i ended things because he deserves better I'm happy I'm happy I'm happy I'm happy I'm happy but sometimes I'm not happy |
